All morning I’ve been reading fellow bloggers’ 2012 recaps. I wasn’t planning on writing one, actually. I just wanted for the year to be over so that I could have a chance to start fresh. 2012, for the most part, was a year I’d like to forget. It’s been a hard year for me, perhaps my hardest yet, filled with internal struggles. I had to face certain truths about myself that I wasn’t prepared to face. I’ve had to have conversations I never wanted to have. For a while, I turned into a person I didn’t want to be.
So, yes, 2012 was a pretty bad year, but I’m starting to see that it’s had the greatest takeaway of any other year. With each bit of darkness came a bit of light. With each truth I faced also came a truth embraced.
2012 was a year when I felt so completely broken at times, but allowing myself to sit with that broken feeling provided me with a great gift. I learned what my values, my beliefs, and my priorities are. I learned who I am and what I want. So, yes, I suppose I had to do a wrap up of 2012, not just to be able to say goodbye to it, but to thank it for all it taught me.
And now my mind shifts to 2013 and the direction I’d like for it to take. I thought long and hard about what I wanted my word for the year to be, but the same word kept making itself be heard. Action. That’s it. I talk a lot, I know I do. I have big ideas, big goals, but I just talk about them. I’ve decided that 2013 will be the year to get outside of my own head and turn my thoughts into actions.
So, I say goodbye to 2012, not with regret or anger, but with appreciation. Thank you for the lessons you taught me.
2013, I’m ready for you.